It's been a while since my last post. Alhamdulillah I was given the chance to breathe, again. I'll not post any tips or review in this entry because I wanted to feel a little bit emotional today. That's mean I can write anything that i think people around me, my surroundings should be aware of. Let's swim into today's entry.
DISCLAMIER: THIS STORY IS KINDA BORING. READ ON YOUR WILL'S.
I have this one girl friend, called A. Obviously her name doesn't started with the letter of A. Jokes on you.
I also have this one guy friend, called B. It was 3 years ever since I knew him (2015-2017). It was good to know him. But without any announce, i fall for him on the first year. Maybe he was nice to me. Or maybe I was too nice towards him. Somewhere in between. For the first time in my life, I was drown in my own life. Grasping for the air. Crushing over someone. Badly, my own friend.
I feel sorry for myself because this thing happened. I shouldn't fall for anyone. I shouldn't care for anyone. But I came back to my sense.
Suka adalah fitrah manusia. You can't deny it. Just think, if you don't believe that the feeling is a gifted from Him --- the Almighty, you wouldn't have love for your family. For your friends. And mostly, for your religion/God/The Almighty. Let's get into the easier one --- cute things. I believe girls are girls. We love cute, pretty & "wow" stuffs. That's how it works. It's depends on us on how to control it.
At the end of the year till the next year (2016), he showed some signs that he was also interested in me. Yes, I was glad my feelings were replied. The truth is, we didn't actually goes clearly towards each other about our feelings. I turned out to be cold.
I've seen people going out together & after a few months, they break up. I was scared if it happens to me. I will get upset all day & it's not good for me. Since I'm still a high school student, i don't think being in a relationship is a good getaway from studies. I "friend-zoned" him.
Thus, a crush shall not reply to my feelings because only I can like you & you can't like me. Ok?
Few months passed so does our feelings. We came back being friends again. Treating like a real one. Uhm, i guess no. Just friends.
Y'all are waiting for the story of A isn't? Wait lah. I'm coming. So there's this one day where he took some pictures with A (2017). I was shocked. Really am. Like wow. It did happened in front of me. In front of my freaking beautiful eyes.
Uhm you are going for my friends now (sebab dia amik gambar dengan A je but not everyone else)? But I don't blame him 100%. It's his feelings. Who am I to stop it? I'm just a human living in a world that full of mysteries.
A was really a fun & easy person to be around with so I guess that's why B fall for her?
Back home, he texted me. Asking about A. To be honest, A & I are from a different class so we rarely talk & meet each other but i still consider her as my friends because we did talk?¿ So we're not that close, you can tell.
I replied him saying, "Uhm, i know nothing much about her. We're not even that close actually. Do you like her?"
He replied, "Hahahahahahaha"
Yes, I knew he did. He like her. But he couldn't tell it because he was shy i assume? Sometimes he show some signs towards A that he like her but A just can't seem to see it.
Another day come. I did saw A was walking with her new guy friend. So I goes like "ummmmm ooookkkkkk". Out of nowhere, i feel pity for B. His feelings must have been cracked & crushed by 2 girls. Since then, the end.
Let's come back to the land.
That's all for today's entry. I don't know if this is really a good story to be share with because it's kinda annoying & childish lol. Tkda unsur mature langsung😂
Moral of the story: Don't let your feelings fall as easy as a piece of cake for someone because at the end of the day, you'll just get hurts.
See you soon.
p/s: I hope B will find his true love soon, she will not dissapoint him in the future & accept him for what he is not because of anything else. insha allah.
This three weeks (including next week) has been a chaos and busy weeks for me. Ya Allah i'm so exhausted. Can you please help me by slower the time so that i could finished and settle everything up? My headache is going worst like all the veins went to the middle of my forehead that i feel like dying and wanted to sleep the whole day.
Ya Allah, please ease my days, my parents, my family, my friends and all of the people. Amin.
Alhamdulillah setelah 3 minggu berhempas pulas untuk exam mid term, akhirnya cuti pun! YAASSSZZZ. To be honest lah kan, i really like exam but nak tunggu exam habis tu macam "ya allah berapa tahun lagi ni" lol. Entah kenapa kerajaan ni nak buat paper sampai 3 for that one subject like seriously doe??! Tapi okaylah banyak paper sebab takda lah aku hura hura baca semua benda sebab aku ni jenis suka study last minute (contoh buruk ni)
Baca perenggan atas ni pun dah boleh tahu aku ni baru masuk upper form. Kenapa? Sebab over betul merungut aku. Jadi, apa perancangan korang untuk cuti 2 minggu ni? Bercuti bersama keluarga/kawan, makan, main video games atau tidur tak bangun bangun? Ha jangan gelak. Oh ya, those yang amik exam penting this year mesti kena pergi kelas tambahan kan huhu (gelak berjemaah) No worries. Persis mutiara kata, berakit-rakit ke hulu, berenang-renang ke tepian, bersakit-sakit dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian. Ha amek kau, aku dah masukkan peribahasa karangan. Everything worth in the end when your niat betul. Tolonglah percaya cakap hakak.
Aku pun sama je macam korang walaupun dah habis pt3 tapi next year spm kut. Kalau this year tak faham basic, jahanam lah jawabnya tahun depan. Memang lah orang kata form4 ni tahun 'honeymoon' but i can't see where is it. So kepada adik-adik pt3, siapa yang dah hafal formula matematik tu jangan lupakan formula tu bila habis pt3 sebab spm nanti nak guna balik. Okay? Hakak kau pesan ni sebab dah menyesal teruja habis sebab pass pt3 patu bila naik form4 semua benda lupa hahahaha
Untuk cuti kali ni, aku dah niat nak cover balik chapter yang dah belajar sebab 90% of them dah hilang dalam memori sobs. Mungkin niat nak belajar yang tak betul sebab tu senang je lupa hm. Kalau korang nak tahu, aku baru je balik camp huhuhu. Memandangkan aku tak berapa nak aktif bab sukan ni, so better aku join camp or other activities yang tak memudaratkan fizikal aku ceh. Camp kalini under unit uniform and fasi yang train kitaorang dari Pengakap Kelana & Brigade Putera. Kalau tak kena jemur time hujan& bumping bukan camp lah kan haha.
Jujur lah ek, aku down gila kut bila ice breaking patu dapat member yang cem taik anti-social. Rasa macam "boleh ke ada teamwork kalau macam ni?" After that, aku terus muhasabah diri patu doa supaya sume boleh bergaul hohoho. And guess what, Dia bantu aku wuhuuu. Alhamdulillah. We did a lot of activities.
First thing paling tak boleh lupa time night walk kena tidur kat perhimpunan patu ada lah hamba Allah ni tertendang kepala aku. Nasib tak pijak muka aku. Kalau tak, hancur muka aku. Jangan gelak. Secondly, aku kena berlakon dengan hero(leader kumpulan aku lol) and we have to insert a pickupline in that acting. Aku pun apa lagi en, tahan ah muka malu time dia cakap pickupline tu lulz. Patu en menggigil kut tangan aku time panggil awak-saya (ew) like i had never talk like that with guys plus i had never talk with guys selalu even with my guy friends. Thirdly, lakonan mak jemah jual jamu mak dara siap insert kdrama punya scene hahahahaha ni paling tak boleh blah. Lastly, cikgu Ham nak pindah. Masa cikgu cakap cemtu en hati aku memang dah luruh ah macam musim autumn. Siapa nak ajar physics lepas ni? Siapa nak jadi cikgu kelas aku lepas ni? :((((((
Okay taknak lah cerita lebih pasal camp ni. Sedih tahu tak (sendiri type patu sendiri sedih nyampah mak)